Wanting What I Can't Have


Ever notice how you don’t really notice something until it’s gone? (I think there’s a song out there that says something like that, but I can’t remember it exactly.) It has always been around, but you never really realized it until you couldn’t have it anymore. Why is it that so often the things we desperately long for are things we cannot have. I decided to give up soft drinks for forty days in an effort to pray for trafficking and slavery around the world. My office sells soft drinks to students every day. In the past, I never really thought much about it, but as soon as I “forbade” myself from having them, it was like some dragon from deep within me starting roaring for a coke.

Just hearing the top pop is enough to make my mouth water. Even talking about it now makes me long for a coke. I’ve thought a lot about this (maybe too much actually). The Bible talks a lot about waiting. Delayed Gratification. In my life, the longer I pray about something, and the longer I have to wait for it, the greater the longing becomes.

I’ll be honest, I hate to wait! I get irritated if the “fast food” line backs up causing me to wait. I abhor traffic because it causes me to wait. I don’t like waiting for my teachers to grade my papers, for the light to turn green, and on and on the list goes. I suppose that God continues to make me wait on more important requests to develop a spirit of patience in me (trust me, I am not there yet!).

So, in the meantime, I begin drooling (not really but my mouth really does start watering) whenever I even think about a coke --- don’t even mention the word “Dr. Pepper” or there’s no telling what might happen. But along with my discomfort, I am moved to pray. While I miss such a simple pleasure, others are longing for their next meal, longing for freedom, longing for love and acceptance. My trivial longings for a coke pale in comparison.

So I wait in hopes that God will hear my prayers and bring healing and freedom (physical and spiritual) to those who are trapped in slavery. Still, I am waiting.
Tears to Joy: Wanting What I Can't Have

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Wanting What I Can't Have


Ever notice how you don’t really notice something until it’s gone? (I think there’s a song out there that says something like that, but I can’t remember it exactly.) It has always been around, but you never really realized it until you couldn’t have it anymore. Why is it that so often the things we desperately long for are things we cannot have. I decided to give up soft drinks for forty days in an effort to pray for trafficking and slavery around the world. My office sells soft drinks to students every day. In the past, I never really thought much about it, but as soon as I “forbade” myself from having them, it was like some dragon from deep within me starting roaring for a coke.

Just hearing the top pop is enough to make my mouth water. Even talking about it now makes me long for a coke. I’ve thought a lot about this (maybe too much actually). The Bible talks a lot about waiting. Delayed Gratification. In my life, the longer I pray about something, and the longer I have to wait for it, the greater the longing becomes.

I’ll be honest, I hate to wait! I get irritated if the “fast food” line backs up causing me to wait. I abhor traffic because it causes me to wait. I don’t like waiting for my teachers to grade my papers, for the light to turn green, and on and on the list goes. I suppose that God continues to make me wait on more important requests to develop a spirit of patience in me (trust me, I am not there yet!).

So, in the meantime, I begin drooling (not really but my mouth really does start watering) whenever I even think about a coke --- don’t even mention the word “Dr. Pepper” or there’s no telling what might happen. But along with my discomfort, I am moved to pray. While I miss such a simple pleasure, others are longing for their next meal, longing for freedom, longing for love and acceptance. My trivial longings for a coke pale in comparison.

So I wait in hopes that God will hear my prayers and bring healing and freedom (physical and spiritual) to those who are trapped in slavery. Still, I am waiting.

3 Comments:

At March 20, 2012 at 1:44 PM , Blogger Scott said...

I'm going without sodas right now as well. Not necessarily for Lent, but sometime in February I decided to go without until Memorial Day.

I believe the song you're thinking of is "Don't Know What You Got (til It's Gone)" by 80s hair band Cinderella. I knew that instantly. Not sure what that says about me.

 
At March 20, 2012 at 5:19 PM , Blogger Melody said...

Wow, your last few lines really puts it into perspective, Nat. I've been whining over no cokes, sugar, etc for the sake of just losing weight and now I'm totally convicted after reading this. I love what you are doing on behalf of others. That is really beautiful.

 
At March 20, 2012 at 5:55 PM , Blogger Natalie said...

Thanks Scott...guess that says a lot about me as well.

 

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